i keep running to the past trying to find my way back, but everything seems to be fading away slowly. i slip into the subconsious mind, and i feel as if something or someone is holding me back, and as if there is more than one part of me falling into the unrecognizable. its like my own inner place inside me, that only i know of, and no one else can get inside without knowing the real answer to the unquestionable. the distinction inside of me is telling me to go back to the state that makes me more at home, and comforted, but at the same time, there is beings inside me trying to keep me from ever going back again. i wonder why? is it because they know the real truth? or maybe its because there is no real answer. my imagination takes off to a new world that brings me to having new thoughts which lead to the most amazing feeling in the world. this world is unlimited, and evergoing. it has no boundries, and no limits. the unimaginable is where i want to be, and once i find the answer, i will go there and never come back.

i bare many burdens. i get the feeling of being completely alone and my silence seems to be louder than my screams. no one can hear me…im all alone. no one can help me, as i am suffering as the days go by. i need help. someone come save me before its too late.

my trip to the hospital was rough. i got out earlier than expected but i still dont see a difference. too many meds so im tired pretty much all the time. it was a rough 3 weeks and i still dont feel better. ffs. :/

finally home….it has been a long 3 weeks.

going to be gone for a little while. farwell dear tumblrs…see you soon…hopefully >.<

mark

Mark is a real person that lives inside my head. He has his own personality,and his own qualities. Sometimes hes nice to me while other times he is horrifying. He is the leader of all the other voices that are living inside my head. He tells me what to do and sometimes hes not very pleasent to be around. The whole clan will live inside my terrifying mind forever.

i dont know anymore. everything seems to be getting worse…not better. my appointment went horrible and it takes every ounce of me to actually get up in the morning to start off each day. i cant do this anymore. these voices wont shut the fuck up and its starting to piss me off. stupid me. ffs.

havnt posted in awhile, i guess thats because i havnt been feelin the greatest…:/ but i have been hanging in there, which is okay. the voices still continue to taunt me like usual…but i only cut once in the past two weeks…so i think thats an accomplishment. any tumbrls wanna talk? hit me up with a message xD

#iwillhelp— i saw that u liked my post and i was trying to post something in ur ask box or submit but i cant find it on ur profile D: i would really like to talk to you. if u read this….try to msg me? cuz im having no luck D: